Good news!
My sister and I get to go to the Inland Invite at Spokane for tennis! Woohoo! It's the weekend before AP, so I think its a great way to let out my stress (of course, last year I couldn't go because I had to study. Now that I'm a senior... who cares!) We won the challenge match easily, so that was a great confidence booster.
Today, I was thinking about the future, aka college. I'm super excited to go to UW, because it is affordable, close but not too close to home, and it is in SEATTLE. Gotta love that place with good food, lots of korean guys, good shopping, korean guys, cooler weather, boys.... ;)
I was more excited about the fact that it is a new beginning for me. There will be a couple of Kamiakin kids I will see there, but UW is pretty big. I love my friends, acquaintances, school (ok some parts), but I just want to get away from it all and start myself anew. All these people here know so much about me, how awkward I looked in middle school, my non-existant love life, my smarts (which might contribute to non-existant love life), etc. I want to go somewhere new where people only know what I tell them about myself, where people don't have any expectations or doubts about you.
I want to be free to be ME without worrying what others think of me. I want to be able to DO what I want to do, SAY what I want to do, BE who I want to be. I don't want to be tied down to someone I'm expected to be.
Well, time to start on AP review. I swear, after AP tests, I'm gonna do the bare minimum to keep my GPA and party! Hooray for senioritis!
Night yo.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
New Starts
It's been awhile. (Said in a sexy Britney Spears voice.... bahahahaha!)
Sorry I haven't blogged lately, I've been busy with family drama, school, tennis, and a stomach flu. But here I am now!
I feel like this week will be filled with beginnings and new things. Or maybe the end of things. Who knows?
I will offically step down from President in Key Club. While it was great and a learning experience to be in charge of Key Club, I also feel glad that my time is done. I've worried about planning events and lazy officers enough for now. There are less than two months of high school left for me, I think I deserve a break. But it will be hard for me to truly let go: I'll always be worried and willing to help out the new officers.
I will begin my AP studying anew. Last week was just a horrible week for me, so I was unable to follow my schedule. I will not stress about that and just keep going and trying my best to stay focused.
I will go out on my first "date" (kinda not really). Well, it is my first time to be asked to go out and eat by a boy... so I guess? I know it is for prom reasons (he better not ask me in an embarrassing way!) but it's still something new for me! One of the biggest things I look foward to in college is the boys and dating and hanging out... =]
... which leads to updates on college! So the choice is down to Northwestern and UW Honors. It depends on the financial stuff really. If Northwestern gives me enough financial aid so that the price to attend will be similar to UW, I would go there. If I get picked to be a WA Scholar (provided that Congress passes the budget for it), I would most likely go to UW since that would cover most of my tuition. I don't find out for both until later this week/next week, so I need to stop thinking about it. It's making me nervous!
To do list for tonight: FRQ, sleep
For tomorrow: jog, shower, study AP, then school at 10:30! Booyah!
Night y'all!
Sorry I haven't blogged lately, I've been busy with family drama, school, tennis, and a stomach flu. But here I am now!
I feel like this week will be filled with beginnings and new things. Or maybe the end of things. Who knows?
I will offically step down from President in Key Club. While it was great and a learning experience to be in charge of Key Club, I also feel glad that my time is done. I've worried about planning events and lazy officers enough for now. There are less than two months of high school left for me, I think I deserve a break. But it will be hard for me to truly let go: I'll always be worried and willing to help out the new officers.
I will begin my AP studying anew. Last week was just a horrible week for me, so I was unable to follow my schedule. I will not stress about that and just keep going and trying my best to stay focused.
I will go out on my first "date" (kinda not really). Well, it is my first time to be asked to go out and eat by a boy... so I guess? I know it is for prom reasons (he better not ask me in an embarrassing way!) but it's still something new for me! One of the biggest things I look foward to in college is the boys and dating and hanging out... =]
... which leads to updates on college! So the choice is down to Northwestern and UW Honors. It depends on the financial stuff really. If Northwestern gives me enough financial aid so that the price to attend will be similar to UW, I would go there. If I get picked to be a WA Scholar (provided that Congress passes the budget for it), I would most likely go to UW since that would cover most of my tuition. I don't find out for both until later this week/next week, so I need to stop thinking about it. It's making me nervous!
To do list for tonight: FRQ, sleep
For tomorrow: jog, shower, study AP, then school at 10:30! Booyah!
Night y'all!
Monday, April 5, 2010
Fake smiles
First off, I didn't get into Harvard. Disappointed? Nah. Even if I miraculously had gotten in, I don't think I would have gone. Its too far and too... serious? I wouldn't have time to explore and grow as a person. It would be study study volunteer study study study join-activities-for-the-sake-of-looking-good study... etc. ICK. How horrible would that be?
So now, its either Northwestern or UW Honors. I would prefer to go to Northwestern (private, smaller, really good reputation, close to alot of med schools) but its pricey. I guess it all depends on how much financial aid I can get.... If its close to what UW would cost, I would go to Northwestern. But UW's nice too... its in Seattle which is close to home, has good korean food, had cute korean guys ;)... We'll see.
Today is Easter, the day He has risen. I can't imagine how... hard(right word?) it must have been for God to give up his only son for us lowly sinners. And how hard it must have been for Jesus to give himself entirely to his Father, even to death on the cross. That was the depth of His love for us. Incredible.
Easter is supposed to be happy, easter-egg-hunting, family holiday. And it started that way. We had our typical Sunday morning, including family breakfast, newspaper ads and comics, and chuch. Then we got home for lunch. I'm not sure what exactly happened, but my mom pissed of my dad because she disagreed with him on this little thing. In short, he got mad because he thought my mom disagreed because she was being lazy/putting stuff off until later. My mom only disagreed because she thought that it wasn't the right time to do it, especially since we were going to have company over. Whatever.
I expected this to all blow over in an hour or so, since my dad usually cools off when left alone for awhile. Also, since this was a stupid fight and the fact that it was Easter bolstered my confidence. Turned out I was wrong. My dad remained mad and mean to everyone right until company came at 4:30. My mom even explained why she disagreed to, but still he remained mad and her hurt.
Now, they have these fake smiles, entertaining our guests and acting like they are enjoying themselves. I wonder if the masks will fall of when everyone leaves or if they truly will have gotten over their stupid argument.
I know its my parents' business and I shouldn't interfere... but my dad being mad completely ruined the happy Easter environment. While we're cleaning up and all, my mom snaps at us, my dad snaps at us, my sister and I practially tip-toe around, and Austin is all confused. Thanks, mom and dad, for ruining the last family Easter I will be having for awhile.
And this has happened before. New Years Eve, my parents got into a stupid fight again, with the usual my dad being angry at my mom and my mom trying to defend herself and explain while my dad refuses to listen. I was stupid enough to try to make them stop because it was supposed to be a family holiday and ended up crying (which my dad hates). That didn't go over well.
So all the family holidays of 2010 so far have been horrible. I can't wait until I move out. I am done with my parents' stupid bickering and the tension-filled atmosphere created. I am done trying to sort out their issues because they (mainly my dad) sure as hell won't listen to me.
Well, here's to venting. I took some pictures of the kids' Easter Egg hunt we had in our backyard. I don't think I'll ever get to them, seeing as how starting from tomorrow, I start my AP studying.
Happy Easter everyone. I hope yours was filled with more love and merriment than mine.
So now, its either Northwestern or UW Honors. I would prefer to go to Northwestern (private, smaller, really good reputation, close to alot of med schools) but its pricey. I guess it all depends on how much financial aid I can get.... If its close to what UW would cost, I would go to Northwestern. But UW's nice too... its in Seattle which is close to home, has good korean food, had cute korean guys ;)... We'll see.
Today is Easter, the day He has risen. I can't imagine how... hard(right word?) it must have been for God to give up his only son for us lowly sinners. And how hard it must have been for Jesus to give himself entirely to his Father, even to death on the cross. That was the depth of His love for us. Incredible.
Easter is supposed to be happy, easter-egg-hunting, family holiday. And it started that way. We had our typical Sunday morning, including family breakfast, newspaper ads and comics, and chuch. Then we got home for lunch. I'm not sure what exactly happened, but my mom pissed of my dad because she disagreed with him on this little thing. In short, he got mad because he thought my mom disagreed because she was being lazy/putting stuff off until later. My mom only disagreed because she thought that it wasn't the right time to do it, especially since we were going to have company over. Whatever.
I expected this to all blow over in an hour or so, since my dad usually cools off when left alone for awhile. Also, since this was a stupid fight and the fact that it was Easter bolstered my confidence. Turned out I was wrong. My dad remained mad and mean to everyone right until company came at 4:30. My mom even explained why she disagreed to, but still he remained mad and her hurt.
Now, they have these fake smiles, entertaining our guests and acting like they are enjoying themselves. I wonder if the masks will fall of when everyone leaves or if they truly will have gotten over their stupid argument.
I know its my parents' business and I shouldn't interfere... but my dad being mad completely ruined the happy Easter environment. While we're cleaning up and all, my mom snaps at us, my dad snaps at us, my sister and I practially tip-toe around, and Austin is all confused. Thanks, mom and dad, for ruining the last family Easter I will be having for awhile.
And this has happened before. New Years Eve, my parents got into a stupid fight again, with the usual my dad being angry at my mom and my mom trying to defend herself and explain while my dad refuses to listen. I was stupid enough to try to make them stop because it was supposed to be a family holiday and ended up crying (which my dad hates). That didn't go over well.
So all the family holidays of 2010 so far have been horrible. I can't wait until I move out. I am done with my parents' stupid bickering and the tension-filled atmosphere created. I am done trying to sort out their issues because they (mainly my dad) sure as hell won't listen to me.
Well, here's to venting. I took some pictures of the kids' Easter Egg hunt we had in our backyard. I don't think I'll ever get to them, seeing as how starting from tomorrow, I start my AP studying.
Happy Easter everyone. I hope yours was filled with more love and merriment than mine.
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Adventures on the Coast
Home at last.
Our trip to the coast wasn't the most relaxing vacation, but it was still super fun and stress-relieving.
We drove down on Tuesday, after spending Monday evening packing like crazy. We stopped by Portland to eat lunch, get our car fixed on some minor stuff at the Acura dealership, and buy korean food for the trip. Then we drove another two hours or so to Beverly Beach State Park, which is 5-10 min north of Newport.
We stayed in a yurt, which is basically like a hut/tent except is insulated, has a wooden floor, bunk bed and sofa bed, and a tent-like cover around it. It had electricity and a heater, which was definately a huge plus during this time of the year. After we unloaded, we had a lovely dinner of camp kimchee cheegue. We went to bed around 10-11, knowing that we'd have to get up around 6:30 AM to go clamming.
Clamming was torturous. We didn't have the rubber boots and gear, because last time we went in August, the cold feet was bearable. I guess late March is very different. My dad and I braved it out while Katie waited for us. We went barefoot in the wet sand. My dad actually lost one of his slippers to the sand because it was so squelchy! I caught clams by stepping around and feeling for hard lumps in the sand. I guess my feet could still feel stuff then. We caught around 50 clams, and trudged back to the car. On the way back to our yurt, my dad kept telling me to rub my feet because I might get frostbite. I honestly didn't care then, for I was so tired.
After a delicious lunch of ramen with freshly-caught clams, we headed out to the bayfront area in Newport to do some crabbing and shopping. We caught one small one and a big female one (which we had to let go). Apparently, crabs don't like to come in after the rain brings freshwater to the bay. Also, I discovered I like salt water taffies.
Because we didn't catch any crabs, we resolved to go crabbing at 1 AM that night. My dad, Katie, and I dressed warmly after a nap and drove back to Newport. Since there are a couple of bars and night clubs, we set the trap and waited in the car, where it was warm and drunk people couldn't get in. We caught about 10 crabs then.
On Thursday, after lunch at a delicious seafood place (which had the best clam chowder I've ever had) , we went crabbing again in the afternoon, but didn't catch any. Good thing we went at night, or we wouldn't have had anything to eat for dinner! We also went up to the light house and took pictures. I'll post them up here after I've had a chance to move them to the computer.
Friday was just plain hectic. As my parents were loading up the car, it started raining like crazy! We drove back to Portland, with our trunk stuffed full. At Portland, we did some shopping at the mall and Hmart. It was a very squished ride home, needless to say. We also went to YoCream and had some delicious frozen yogurt.
So I guess this trip was a great family adventure, full of tiring activities and good food. Its strange how such a tiring trip was a great stress reliever. Just being away from thoughts of school, college, clubs, and tennis helped.
On a side note, will I hear back from Harvard tomorrow? They sent out letters on Thursday (and emails to but I apparently opted out of that =/). Will I get in? Eh probably not. My dad found some statistics online today in a newspaper that said that about 30,000 applied, and only 2,100 or so people got in. Out of those 30000, 3600 were the top of their class and about 2100 of them made it. Is this a good thing for me, being top of my class? Who knows!
Good night. Maybe pictures and college news will be up tomorrow?
Our trip to the coast wasn't the most relaxing vacation, but it was still super fun and stress-relieving.
We drove down on Tuesday, after spending Monday evening packing like crazy. We stopped by Portland to eat lunch, get our car fixed on some minor stuff at the Acura dealership, and buy korean food for the trip. Then we drove another two hours or so to Beverly Beach State Park, which is 5-10 min north of Newport.
We stayed in a yurt, which is basically like a hut/tent except is insulated, has a wooden floor, bunk bed and sofa bed, and a tent-like cover around it. It had electricity and a heater, which was definately a huge plus during this time of the year. After we unloaded, we had a lovely dinner of camp kimchee cheegue. We went to bed around 10-11, knowing that we'd have to get up around 6:30 AM to go clamming.
Clamming was torturous. We didn't have the rubber boots and gear, because last time we went in August, the cold feet was bearable. I guess late March is very different. My dad and I braved it out while Katie waited for us. We went barefoot in the wet sand. My dad actually lost one of his slippers to the sand because it was so squelchy! I caught clams by stepping around and feeling for hard lumps in the sand. I guess my feet could still feel stuff then. We caught around 50 clams, and trudged back to the car. On the way back to our yurt, my dad kept telling me to rub my feet because I might get frostbite. I honestly didn't care then, for I was so tired.
After a delicious lunch of ramen with freshly-caught clams, we headed out to the bayfront area in Newport to do some crabbing and shopping. We caught one small one and a big female one (which we had to let go). Apparently, crabs don't like to come in after the rain brings freshwater to the bay. Also, I discovered I like salt water taffies.
Because we didn't catch any crabs, we resolved to go crabbing at 1 AM that night. My dad, Katie, and I dressed warmly after a nap and drove back to Newport. Since there are a couple of bars and night clubs, we set the trap and waited in the car, where it was warm and drunk people couldn't get in. We caught about 10 crabs then.
On Thursday, after lunch at a delicious seafood place (which had the best clam chowder I've ever had) , we went crabbing again in the afternoon, but didn't catch any. Good thing we went at night, or we wouldn't have had anything to eat for dinner! We also went up to the light house and took pictures. I'll post them up here after I've had a chance to move them to the computer.
Friday was just plain hectic. As my parents were loading up the car, it started raining like crazy! We drove back to Portland, with our trunk stuffed full. At Portland, we did some shopping at the mall and Hmart. It was a very squished ride home, needless to say. We also went to YoCream and had some delicious frozen yogurt.
So I guess this trip was a great family adventure, full of tiring activities and good food. Its strange how such a tiring trip was a great stress reliever. Just being away from thoughts of school, college, clubs, and tennis helped.
On a side note, will I hear back from Harvard tomorrow? They sent out letters on Thursday (and emails to but I apparently opted out of that =/). Will I get in? Eh probably not. My dad found some statistics online today in a newspaper that said that about 30,000 applied, and only 2,100 or so people got in. Out of those 30000, 3600 were the top of their class and about 2100 of them made it. Is this a good thing for me, being top of my class? Who knows!
Good night. Maybe pictures and college news will be up tomorrow?
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