Wheat and Mud Pies

Today, I learned that wheat is still growing in March.

Kaile took me to the wheat fields by Finley to take pictures. The wheat wasn't the long, golden stalks we expected, but it was still beautiful up on that hill. The blue sky and green wheat, the absence of society and calm presence of nature, the silent humming of the wind turbines and bright chirping of the birds...

We took lots of pictures. Good thing too because I deparately needed some new profile pictures haha. After a quick stop at Winco, we went to my house to make mud pies. Boy were they delicious! I had two cups... which probably wasn't a good thing for my stomache. I'm sure the smoothie we had later didn't help. We edited pictures and talked until Kaile went home.

In the evening, Katie, Austin, and I had a kareoke/dance party. Now I'm tired, so bed time!


Here are some pictures from today. I'm having a hard time arranging these...

Picture taken and edited by Kaile and I =]

Ugh. So tired.

Today didn't have the best start, but not the worst either. I was falling asleep in school again, so I went with Kaile and Eileen to Winco, and I bought Starbucks coffee and sugarfree dark chocolate-covered raisisns. And NO that didn't count for Lent, because I didn't buy them to eat during lunch. Only when I left to Moses Lake for a tennis match.

When I went to my car to get my tennis gear, my water bottle fell out and broke. I was pretty upset and mad, cursing a couple of times. It was my favorite water bottle =[

The trip up to Moses Lake was pretty fun, even though I fell asleep for awhile. But the coffee soon kicked in and I was ready for my match. My sister and I won, 6-0, 6-4. In the first set, we played absolutely perfectly, and I had amazing volleys. The second set, the opponents got better, while we started making mistakes. But its all good. The team had a fun time standing in the cold, eating the snacks I brought, and cheering the others on. After a $5 footlong dinner from Subway, we came home. I had a horrible stomachache, but its all good now, thanks to Peptobismal.

Highlight of my day? Finding out that I GOT INTO NORTHWESTERN UNIVERSITY!!! They sent me a letter today, but they let me check online through email too. I'm not sure if I'm going to go because it is a little pricey. I guess it depends on how much aid/scholarships they will give me. If it is close to UW's tuition (and I don't get a full-ride scholarship to UW), then I will probably go.

But still! This totally boosts up my self esteem! Not getting into Stanford kinda hurt my self-esteem, but this totally boosts it up! Now think of what getting into Harvard would do.

Night.

Beating Sunnyside

Aaah, day three of blogging. I'm surprised I'm writing blogs daily. Perhaps it is because my life is exciting? (Rhetorical question, don't answer that)

My sister and I both woke up late, but still managed to get to school on time and get a spot in Jock. One of these days, both my sister and I will "sleep through our alarm clock" and miss half of school.

School was same old, same old. McGuinness was freaking out about people being gone and her refusing to grade papers during Spring Break because she has a life, all while dumping loads of homework for us during Spring Break. Blehhh

Tennis went great though! My sister and I won our match in about 45 min or so, with a score of 6-0, 6-0. Pretty darn good, if I say so myself. Granted, the girls we played weren't too good, so if we let them get any points, it would have been embarrasing. We both played well, probably because we weren't stressed about it mentally. We both had few errors, but a couple of shots to the net man could have ended badly. Thankfully, the other girls sucked at volleys. Everybody on Varsity won, so I think George owes us pizza.

Tomorrow, we leave for Moses Lake right after lunch! Tennis there should be interesting... we haven't played them in a couple of years. I wonder if they're good... I'm almost done packing, I'm bringing alot of sugary snacks that we have in the house that no one eats for the team. That's always a nice way to get rid of food no one wants.

To do: lit hw, study for the calc test tomorrow (which I won't do, seeing that it is 11:30 already), finish packing clothes, sleep...zzzzz

Good night.

Cookie Cakes and Golf Carts

So basically, yesterday felt amazing.

Senior Skip Day was a blast, and it was so funny how so many teachers were confused. Seniors steadidly seemed to disappear as the day went on. I had "cramps" so I "went home".

Later, I met up with Kaile, Elizabeth, and Jayanah at Howard Amon. We took some pictures, normal smiling ones and some "artistic ones"

Then we had our picnic lunch, including Kaile's AMAZINGLYSUPERFANTASTICALLYDELICIOUS chocolate chip cookie cake. I think I had a little too much of that actually =P

We went to Uptown Mall and explored, including this fabulous antique store, bead store (where we got rubberband rings!), and Octopus Garden. Spudnuts was delicious, the mixed berry gelato, even more so.

Today was our day off for Student Led Conferences. I was actually smart this time and planned my meeting tomorrow right after school. Booyah!

So, because everybody was free this afternoon, my parents decided to take us out to play golf at Canyon Lakes. No, my sister and I did not play golf. We just drove the golf carts and did some golf clapping and "Nice shot!"'s. After the 9th hole, Katie, Austin and I decided to play mini-golf instead because we were getting bored. I suck. I kept hitting my ball in the water (which was blue! bleh) or the mini-bunkers. But later, I did well, getting pars.

Now, my cheeks are red. Obviously, the sunblock didn't work completely. I know I will be religiously putting it on as it gets nicer and nicer. I like having pale skin, rather than being really tan.

Tonight's To-Do list: Psych vocab, Lit passages, look at Kiwanis scholarship, email Vivian about not being able to volunteer Thursday, get ready for tomorrow's match, get ready for bed, decide between two of my spring dresses for tomorrow's Dress Day, practice visualization for tennis.

Pictures are from Kaile, with her amazing camera and photoshop skills!

Peace out, yo.

Moving on

What a crazy, emotional weekend this has been.



I had a double header Saturday for tennis. The first match, I didn't do the best at first, but did well the second half. But of course, you're not the only one hitting the ball when you're playing doubles. The same went for the second match: I didn't do my best because I was so tired, but I would have won with a different partner.



I was so frustrated because we should have won both matches. Skill-wise, I was much better. As for the amount of errors I was making, that's another story.



So, I got home, and had kind of a emotional breakdown. I was home alone, so I figured, oh what the heck, and let out my stress, frustration, and humiliation. I guess I didn't let out all of it, because I was still depressed and on the verge of tears for the rest of the evening.



Today was better, in the sense that some things were settled.



After church, we went to the Pho noodle restaurant. I asked my dad a question about stragety for the tennis challenge my sister and I are going to do tomorrow. Turned into a speech about how he didn't want to be our coach anymore and that we should get private lessons from someone else and just have fun doing tennis rather than get stressed over it.



Ouch. I felt betrayed.



I mean, I've thought that too, that its logical to not get lessons from our dad because he gets angered easily which stresses us out...etc. But still, it hurt that it seems like he was giving up on us. He has such high expectations, so that it pains him when we don't meet it. Later this evening, when he was not angered about it anymore, he told me that he'll still give lessons to us if we want and are willing to put up with him getting angry.

I'm not sure if I want to. The tone of his voice sounded like he felt obliged to say it but didn't want to. So for now, I guess it'll just be practicing with the team, hitting with my sis, and using the ball machine at the Court Club.

But throughout all this, I've come to a realization:

I shouldn't stress over tennis: I'm not gonna go pro or anything, I'm just doing it for fun and exercise. Besides, as I've known from previous seasons, I do better if I don't take it too seriously and just have fun.

Winning isn't everything: I just need to do my best and not judge myself against others. I've learned to do this with other things, like being successful in school, but not in tennis, I guess. This will be hard to learn, but at least I've started.

I can't trust anyone completely, not even my family: As sad as this sounds, I've realized that my family will not always be there for me. For most of the time, yes, but there will be occasions where they will fail me. Thankfully, this has not happened much. I've always thought I will always have family to fall back to during my troubles. But now I realize that this is a hard thing to do when your family is the one causing your troubles. When my dad gave up on coaching tennis for my sis and me, that broke a little piece of my heart.

Thank goodness for my friends I can turn to when I can't turn to my family. I am blessed to have such wonderful friends, a loving family (who isn't perfect, but then, who is?), and a bright future. I am blessed to have the opportunities to learn lessons, even though some heartbreak may be involved.

Hmm... there goes my time to do Psych hw. Oh well, there's always tomorrow night!

Good night. Should be an exciting day tomorrow.