Sophistication

Ah... what a productive day.

After waking up at 7:45 and working out (go me!), I got ready and headed out to meet with my aunt.

I walked down Anam to ride the subway. That's the hill I have to walk up and down to get around.

On the way, I stopped by the dry cleaners to get a pair of shorts cleaned (grease is a pain!) and also stopped by the watch store to get my watch fixed.

After changing subway lines twice, I finally arrived at our meeting point. Since my aunt was a little late, I got bored and took pictures.

She came, and off we went to In-Sa-dong! It's a street full of jewelry stores, Korean souvenir stores, and trinket stores. I got a couple gifts for some people and a scarf for me! My aunt got me these adorable ceramic earrings with a heart on it.

After a delicious lunch of Kar-guksu (noodles), we headed off to Sam-Chong-dong, a street by the Royal Palace full of little boutiques, art galleries, and coffee shops. We got iced Americanos at this adorable cafe.

We went to a couple of art galleries, but unluckily, half of them were closed. Apparently, a lot of places are closed on Mondays. Huh. It was still fun to view the open ones, although I didn't understand the artistic idea behind some paintings (blurry paintings of someone's legs with their jeans pulled up around their knees, really?). Oh well. I felt very sophisticated though!





We stopped and looked at numerous boutiques. Their clothes were a little too classy and expensive for me, but the jewelry and hair accessories were so cute! I didn't get anything, despite my aunt's insistence that she buy me something. I didn't feel the need to get a cute gold ribbon $70 headband really.

We ate some Pat-juk (read bean porridge) that was AMAZING! It had chestnuts, beans, and dduk. Heavenly.

We called it a day and went back to the subway station. Back at Anam, I met with my mom to get a checkup at the hospital. So tired! So much walking!

Only 9 days left! Woohoo!
~Monica

Freebies

After the usual morning routine of wake up, press snooze, wake up for real, work out, shower, Facebook, and breakfast, my mom, Katie, and I decided to go to Myung-Dong on a whim. Myung-Dong is a place that's been famous for a long time for its shopping and food. Of course, now-a-days, it's full of tourists (mostly Japanese and Chinese), but it was still fun!


We went first to the largest Catholic church in Korea. We went inside and prayed for awhile, since we haven't been able to go to Mass every weekend lately.






We then hit the streets to explore.





Since alot of the people there are tourists, the alot of the shop workers are fluent somewhat in Japanese and Chinese.


We found a yummy looking Japanese noodle restaurant. I ordered this spicy ramen, and it was delicious! (Although I like the Japanese noodles I had in Hawaii better)





Here's a view of the downtown. Look! There's me!






Afterwards, my mom went home earlier because she had to pick up Austin from kindergarten. Katie and I stayed out a bit more. We hit the make-up stores (mostly due to all the freebies they were giving out). I tried on eye-shadow, and it actually looked good! Lip-stain worked like a charm too =]





Katie and I stopped by a Pineapple Express smoothie from the Smoothie King. Mmhmm, good!





All in all, a great day to end Katie's summer vacation. Since online school starts for her now! Muahahahaha!

Night!
Monica

Screaming fans

Yes, I was a complete fan girl, complete with glowstick waving, singing along, and "'I love you Taec-yeon!" screaming.

Yesterday, we went to the 2PM Don't Stop Can't Stop Encore concert as part of Katie's birthday present. We were such dedicated fans that we braved through pouring rain and thunder in our rain ponchos and umbrella (nah, the tickets were non-refundable! lol)

We got off the subway to find tons of girls chattering excitedly, buying rain ponchos, souvenirs, etc. We bought glowsticks and a Nich-khun mousepad for Katie. We took a deep breath and plunged outside in the storm to walk over to the stadium. Along the way, we got our tickets, and Katie managed to get a 2PM promotional fan. There were tons of lines for the people (aka crazy fangirls) who had gotten tickets to be in the standing area in front of the stage. Alot of them were carrying water guns. Strange....

We finally got in the stadium and into our seats.

The lights finally dimmed past 5. And now, glowsticks!

The 2PM members came in roaring on motorcycles. Then, the concert started!

So for all my American friends, 2PM is the hottest (both in looks and popularity) boy group of Korea at the moment. All the members are handsome/cute, tall, muscular, and good at dancing. Some have good vocals, the others rap. One is a Korean boy from the US (which is why Taec-yeon is perfect for me!), one is half Thai, and the other 4 are from Korea.

Our seats were in the second row in the front, right by the walkway where the members would walk around. All of them at some point came right by us! And TAEC-YEON ACTUALLY CAME UP PAST THE RAILING TO WHERE WE WERE! Of course, all the staff people jumped up to keep all the screaming girls (including us lol) in their seats. He was literally a foot away from us! We couldn't touch his hand because he didn't stick it out as he walked back down by us... but then, think how weird it is to get touched by random screaming strangers!

The concert finally ended... or so we thought! As the crowd kept chanting "2PM! 2PM!", the members and back-up dancers came out! And so, a water fight started! Those water guns were put to good use by the fans, and the 2PM members began to fight back with water bottles placed all over the walk ways. The seated people (including us) jumped up to the railing to join in. Half the members came up to us to spray us with water. Fans in the standing area threw stuff at the members for them to have, and Katie managed to get a fan sign from the fray!

Then it was finally over (for real). We walked out (it wasn't raining anymore, thankfully), got free posters from the concert, and bought souvenirs on the way to the subway station. Katie got another 2PM poster, a 2PM calender, name tags, etc. Yes, she's a huge fan and has an uncanny ability to pick up souvenirs. Did you notice? =P

We came home on the subway. Here's the view of the Olympic Bridge from the train!





And that was the end of our 2PM adventure! What a great success for my first concert!

Muah! (not for you silly. It's for Taec-yeon!)

Monica

Jumpin Around

Wow. What a busy day today.

I woke up, worked out, came back to our home to be told that we were leaving in the next hour for my grandparents. (aka no facebook time for me, boohoo) We went over to have a birthday lunch party for my sister with my dad's side of the family. The Japanese restauarant had pretty good stuff, but no udon. Ah well, next time! My sister loved her presents, which included CD's (with posters of course), cell phone holder, necklace, and money to buy an iTouch.

After hanging out at my grandparents' tiny-yet-bigger-than-our-home apartment, we came back home at 4:30. After relaxing for 30 minutes, we were off again, this time for a dinner and a show.

We ate at a Korean bean-paste restaurant with family friends, from whom I recieved graduation money (woohoo!) We shopped around for a bit at the stalls next to the restauarant where I bought legit headphones. I can't wait until I wear them around college! After ice cream at Coldstone, we went off to see the show.

Jump is a comic martial arts show about this crazy martial-arts family. The perpetually drunk uncle is chastised for being, well drunk: the daughter is won over by a shy boy with more than meets the eye; and burglers break into the house, not knowing what they are getting into. While the plots are simple, the comic action was hilarious, and the fighting awesome. I wish I could jump as high as them! After an hour and a half of laughter, we got to meet the cast and get signatures.

We came out, and us kids (as I still consider myself) went to a sticker-photo place. I seem to be drawn towards afros....

We walked along a prettily lit creek, ate some dduk-bok-gi, bought some shoes (my mom anyways), and finally said goodbye. I'll miss that family, who we've been friends with since back in the good ol days of College Station, TX. After riding the subway, we finally got home past 11 PM.

Whew. Busy day, huh? And now... 2PM, here we come!

Night!

Back Again

Hello again!

As you can see, I've decided to blog again! But not everyday... I'm afraid my life is not exciting enough to talk about everyday =P

For those that are confused to why I am in Korea right now and posting this... err early in the morning, here's why: My dad, who is a professor, is currently doing his sabbatical at Korea University. This means that he will be teaching/researching here for a semester. So, my whole family came here, starting from July, so that we can meet family, friends, go on vacation, etc. Therefore, I'm stuck here until September 22nd, the day before I move in to UW (woot woot!)

I should have started blogging again before about my fantasic adventures here but oops! Well, better late then never!

Today, we went to a little reunion for my dad and his cousins (on his mom's side). I thought it would be very droll, but it was actually quite fun! We went to a pension (kind of like a vacation home/room you can rent out) in the mountains next to a creek. It was quite pretty... minus all the rain and brown murky creek water that came with it. We had a barbeque lunch, korean-style. Most of my dad's cousins are great, all very social and outgoing. My sister and I got along with them pretty well, considering that the youngest cousin is 36 or so. There were also 2 kids and one toddler that we played with. Good thing we brought the Wii! They really liked the barbequed shrimp we had, and I swear I shelled at least 50 of them for them. Ah well, totally worth it for the kids. I got to experience the "Where are you going to college/what are you majoring in/your mom told us about your scholarship, congrats!" talk I missed back in the US. Downside of having most of your family half way around the world, I guess. After much food, laughter, alcohol (that I got to drink since in Korea, adults give it to you once you graduate high school ;) , lots of Wii, and more food, we came back home to our crowded college apartment.



So now, good night. Mucho love to you all! I miss you!
~Monica

To be who I want to be

Good news!

My sister and I get to go to the Inland Invite at Spokane for tennis! Woohoo! It's the weekend before AP, so I think its a great way to let out my stress (of course, last year I couldn't go because I had to study. Now that I'm a senior... who cares!) We won the challenge match easily, so that was a great confidence booster.

Today, I was thinking about the future, aka college. I'm super excited to go to UW, because it is affordable, close but not too close to home, and it is in SEATTLE. Gotta love that place with good food, lots of korean guys, good shopping, korean guys, cooler weather, boys.... ;)

I was more excited about the fact that it is a new beginning for me. There will be a couple of Kamiakin kids I will see there, but UW is pretty big. I love my friends, acquaintances, school (ok some parts), but I just want to get away from it all and start myself anew. All these people here know so much about me, how awkward I looked in middle school, my non-existant love life, my smarts (which might contribute to non-existant love life), etc. I want to go somewhere new where people only know what I tell them about myself, where people don't have any expectations or doubts about you.

I want to be free to be ME without worrying what others think of me. I want to be able to DO what I want to do, SAY what I want to do, BE who I want to be. I don't want to be tied down to someone I'm expected to be.

Well, time to start on AP review. I swear, after AP tests, I'm gonna do the bare minimum to keep my GPA and party! Hooray for senioritis!

Night yo.

New Starts

It's been awhile. (Said in a sexy Britney Spears voice.... bahahahaha!)

Sorry I haven't blogged lately, I've been busy with family drama, school, tennis, and a stomach flu. But here I am now!

I feel like this week will be filled with beginnings and new things. Or maybe the end of things. Who knows?

I will offically step down from President in Key Club. While it was great and a learning experience to be in charge of Key Club, I also feel glad that my time is done. I've worried about planning events and lazy officers enough for now. There are less than two months of high school left for me, I think I deserve a break. But it will be hard for me to truly let go: I'll always be worried and willing to help out the new officers.

I will begin my AP studying anew. Last week was just a horrible week for me, so I was unable to follow my schedule. I will not stress about that and just keep going and trying my best to stay focused.

I will go out on my first "date" (kinda not really). Well, it is my first time to be asked to go out and eat by a boy... so I guess? I know it is for prom reasons (he better not ask me in an embarrassing way!) but it's still something new for me! One of the biggest things I look foward to in college is the boys and dating and hanging out... =]

... which leads to updates on college! So the choice is down to Northwestern and UW Honors. It depends on the financial stuff really. If Northwestern gives me enough financial aid so that the price to attend will be similar to UW, I would go there. If I get picked to be a WA Scholar (provided that Congress passes the budget for it), I would most likely go to UW since that would cover most of my tuition. I don't find out for both until later this week/next week, so I need to stop thinking about it. It's making me nervous!

To do list for tonight: FRQ, sleep
For tomorrow: jog, shower, study AP, then school at 10:30! Booyah!

Night y'all!

Fake smiles

First off, I didn't get into Harvard. Disappointed? Nah. Even if I miraculously had gotten in, I don't think I would have gone. Its too far and too... serious? I wouldn't have time to explore and grow as a person. It would be study study volunteer study study study join-activities-for-the-sake-of-looking-good study... etc. ICK. How horrible would that be?

So now, its either Northwestern or UW Honors. I would prefer to go to Northwestern (private, smaller, really good reputation, close to alot of med schools) but its pricey. I guess it all depends on how much financial aid I can get.... If its close to what UW would cost, I would go to Northwestern. But UW's nice too... its in Seattle which is close to home, has good korean food, had cute korean guys ;)... We'll see.



Today is Easter, the day He has risen. I can't imagine how... hard(right word?) it must have been for God to give up his only son for us lowly sinners. And how hard it must have been for Jesus to give himself entirely to his Father, even to death on the cross. That was the depth of His love for us. Incredible.

Easter is supposed to be happy, easter-egg-hunting, family holiday. And it started that way. We had our typical Sunday morning, including family breakfast, newspaper ads and comics, and chuch. Then we got home for lunch. I'm not sure what exactly happened, but my mom pissed of my dad because she disagreed with him on this little thing. In short, he got mad because he thought my mom disagreed because she was being lazy/putting stuff off until later. My mom only disagreed because she thought that it wasn't the right time to do it, especially since we were going to have company over. Whatever.

I expected this to all blow over in an hour or so, since my dad usually cools off when left alone for awhile. Also, since this was a stupid fight and the fact that it was Easter bolstered my confidence. Turned out I was wrong. My dad remained mad and mean to everyone right until company came at 4:30. My mom even explained why she disagreed to, but still he remained mad and her hurt.

Now, they have these fake smiles, entertaining our guests and acting like they are enjoying themselves. I wonder if the masks will fall of when everyone leaves or if they truly will have gotten over their stupid argument.

I know its my parents' business and I shouldn't interfere... but my dad being mad completely ruined the happy Easter environment. While we're cleaning up and all, my mom snaps at us, my dad snaps at us, my sister and I practially tip-toe around, and Austin is all confused. Thanks, mom and dad, for ruining the last family Easter I will be having for awhile.

And this has happened before. New Years Eve, my parents got into a stupid fight again, with the usual my dad being angry at my mom and my mom trying to defend herself and explain while my dad refuses to listen. I was stupid enough to try to make them stop because it was supposed to be a family holiday and ended up crying (which my dad hates). That didn't go over well.

So all the family holidays of 2010 so far have been horrible. I can't wait until I move out. I am done with my parents' stupid bickering and the tension-filled atmosphere created. I am done trying to sort out their issues because they (mainly my dad) sure as hell won't listen to me.

Well, here's to venting. I took some pictures of the kids' Easter Egg hunt we had in our backyard. I don't think I'll ever get to them, seeing as how starting from tomorrow, I start my AP studying.

Happy Easter everyone. I hope yours was filled with more love and merriment than mine.

Adventures on the Coast

Home at last.

Our trip to the coast wasn't the most relaxing vacation, but it was still super fun and stress-relieving.

We drove down on Tuesday, after spending Monday evening packing like crazy. We stopped by Portland to eat lunch, get our car fixed on some minor stuff at the Acura dealership, and buy korean food for the trip. Then we drove another two hours or so to Beverly Beach State Park, which is 5-10 min north of Newport.

We stayed in a yurt, which is basically like a hut/tent except is insulated, has a wooden floor, bunk bed and sofa bed, and a tent-like cover around it. It had electricity and a heater, which was definately a huge plus during this time of the year. After we unloaded, we had a lovely dinner of camp kimchee cheegue. We went to bed around 10-11, knowing that we'd have to get up around 6:30 AM to go clamming.

Clamming was torturous. We didn't have the rubber boots and gear, because last time we went in August, the cold feet was bearable. I guess late March is very different. My dad and I braved it out while Katie waited for us. We went barefoot in the wet sand. My dad actually lost one of his slippers to the sand because it was so squelchy! I caught clams by stepping around and feeling for hard lumps in the sand. I guess my feet could still feel stuff then. We caught around 50 clams, and trudged back to the car. On the way back to our yurt, my dad kept telling me to rub my feet because I might get frostbite. I honestly didn't care then, for I was so tired.

After a delicious lunch of ramen with freshly-caught clams, we headed out to the bayfront area in Newport to do some crabbing and shopping. We caught one small one and a big female one (which we had to let go). Apparently, crabs don't like to come in after the rain brings freshwater to the bay. Also, I discovered I like salt water taffies.

Because we didn't catch any crabs, we resolved to go crabbing at 1 AM that night. My dad, Katie, and I dressed warmly after a nap and drove back to Newport. Since there are a couple of bars and night clubs, we set the trap and waited in the car, where it was warm and drunk people couldn't get in. We caught about 10 crabs then.

On Thursday, after lunch at a delicious seafood place (which had the best clam chowder I've ever had) , we went crabbing again in the afternoon, but didn't catch any. Good thing we went at night, or we wouldn't have had anything to eat for dinner! We also went up to the light house and took pictures. I'll post them up here after I've had a chance to move them to the computer.

Friday was just plain hectic. As my parents were loading up the car, it started raining like crazy! We drove back to Portland, with our trunk stuffed full. At Portland, we did some shopping at the mall and Hmart. It was a very squished ride home, needless to say. We also went to YoCream and had some delicious frozen yogurt.

So I guess this trip was a great family adventure, full of tiring activities and good food. Its strange how such a tiring trip was a great stress reliever. Just being away from thoughts of school, college, clubs, and tennis helped.

On a side note, will I hear back from Harvard tomorrow? They sent out letters on Thursday (and emails to but I apparently opted out of that =/). Will I get in? Eh probably not. My dad found some statistics online today in a newspaper that said that about 30,000 applied, and only 2,100 or so people got in. Out of those 30000, 3600 were the top of their class and about 2100 of them made it. Is this a good thing for me, being top of my class? Who knows!

Good night. Maybe pictures and college news will be up tomorrow?

Wheat and Mud Pies

Today, I learned that wheat is still growing in March.

Kaile took me to the wheat fields by Finley to take pictures. The wheat wasn't the long, golden stalks we expected, but it was still beautiful up on that hill. The blue sky and green wheat, the absence of society and calm presence of nature, the silent humming of the wind turbines and bright chirping of the birds...

We took lots of pictures. Good thing too because I deparately needed some new profile pictures haha. After a quick stop at Winco, we went to my house to make mud pies. Boy were they delicious! I had two cups... which probably wasn't a good thing for my stomache. I'm sure the smoothie we had later didn't help. We edited pictures and talked until Kaile went home.

In the evening, Katie, Austin, and I had a kareoke/dance party. Now I'm tired, so bed time!


Here are some pictures from today. I'm having a hard time arranging these...

Picture taken and edited by Kaile and I =]

Ugh. So tired.

Today didn't have the best start, but not the worst either. I was falling asleep in school again, so I went with Kaile and Eileen to Winco, and I bought Starbucks coffee and sugarfree dark chocolate-covered raisisns. And NO that didn't count for Lent, because I didn't buy them to eat during lunch. Only when I left to Moses Lake for a tennis match.

When I went to my car to get my tennis gear, my water bottle fell out and broke. I was pretty upset and mad, cursing a couple of times. It was my favorite water bottle =[

The trip up to Moses Lake was pretty fun, even though I fell asleep for awhile. But the coffee soon kicked in and I was ready for my match. My sister and I won, 6-0, 6-4. In the first set, we played absolutely perfectly, and I had amazing volleys. The second set, the opponents got better, while we started making mistakes. But its all good. The team had a fun time standing in the cold, eating the snacks I brought, and cheering the others on. After a $5 footlong dinner from Subway, we came home. I had a horrible stomachache, but its all good now, thanks to Peptobismal.

Highlight of my day? Finding out that I GOT INTO NORTHWESTERN UNIVERSITY!!! They sent me a letter today, but they let me check online through email too. I'm not sure if I'm going to go because it is a little pricey. I guess it depends on how much aid/scholarships they will give me. If it is close to UW's tuition (and I don't get a full-ride scholarship to UW), then I will probably go.

But still! This totally boosts up my self esteem! Not getting into Stanford kinda hurt my self-esteem, but this totally boosts it up! Now think of what getting into Harvard would do.

Night.

Beating Sunnyside

Aaah, day three of blogging. I'm surprised I'm writing blogs daily. Perhaps it is because my life is exciting? (Rhetorical question, don't answer that)

My sister and I both woke up late, but still managed to get to school on time and get a spot in Jock. One of these days, both my sister and I will "sleep through our alarm clock" and miss half of school.

School was same old, same old. McGuinness was freaking out about people being gone and her refusing to grade papers during Spring Break because she has a life, all while dumping loads of homework for us during Spring Break. Blehhh

Tennis went great though! My sister and I won our match in about 45 min or so, with a score of 6-0, 6-0. Pretty darn good, if I say so myself. Granted, the girls we played weren't too good, so if we let them get any points, it would have been embarrasing. We both played well, probably because we weren't stressed about it mentally. We both had few errors, but a couple of shots to the net man could have ended badly. Thankfully, the other girls sucked at volleys. Everybody on Varsity won, so I think George owes us pizza.

Tomorrow, we leave for Moses Lake right after lunch! Tennis there should be interesting... we haven't played them in a couple of years. I wonder if they're good... I'm almost done packing, I'm bringing alot of sugary snacks that we have in the house that no one eats for the team. That's always a nice way to get rid of food no one wants.

To do: lit hw, study for the calc test tomorrow (which I won't do, seeing that it is 11:30 already), finish packing clothes, sleep...zzzzz

Good night.

Cookie Cakes and Golf Carts

So basically, yesterday felt amazing.

Senior Skip Day was a blast, and it was so funny how so many teachers were confused. Seniors steadidly seemed to disappear as the day went on. I had "cramps" so I "went home".

Later, I met up with Kaile, Elizabeth, and Jayanah at Howard Amon. We took some pictures, normal smiling ones and some "artistic ones"

Then we had our picnic lunch, including Kaile's AMAZINGLYSUPERFANTASTICALLYDELICIOUS chocolate chip cookie cake. I think I had a little too much of that actually =P

We went to Uptown Mall and explored, including this fabulous antique store, bead store (where we got rubberband rings!), and Octopus Garden. Spudnuts was delicious, the mixed berry gelato, even more so.

Today was our day off for Student Led Conferences. I was actually smart this time and planned my meeting tomorrow right after school. Booyah!

So, because everybody was free this afternoon, my parents decided to take us out to play golf at Canyon Lakes. No, my sister and I did not play golf. We just drove the golf carts and did some golf clapping and "Nice shot!"'s. After the 9th hole, Katie, Austin and I decided to play mini-golf instead because we were getting bored. I suck. I kept hitting my ball in the water (which was blue! bleh) or the mini-bunkers. But later, I did well, getting pars.

Now, my cheeks are red. Obviously, the sunblock didn't work completely. I know I will be religiously putting it on as it gets nicer and nicer. I like having pale skin, rather than being really tan.

Tonight's To-Do list: Psych vocab, Lit passages, look at Kiwanis scholarship, email Vivian about not being able to volunteer Thursday, get ready for tomorrow's match, get ready for bed, decide between two of my spring dresses for tomorrow's Dress Day, practice visualization for tennis.

Pictures are from Kaile, with her amazing camera and photoshop skills!

Peace out, yo.

Moving on

What a crazy, emotional weekend this has been.



I had a double header Saturday for tennis. The first match, I didn't do the best at first, but did well the second half. But of course, you're not the only one hitting the ball when you're playing doubles. The same went for the second match: I didn't do my best because I was so tired, but I would have won with a different partner.



I was so frustrated because we should have won both matches. Skill-wise, I was much better. As for the amount of errors I was making, that's another story.



So, I got home, and had kind of a emotional breakdown. I was home alone, so I figured, oh what the heck, and let out my stress, frustration, and humiliation. I guess I didn't let out all of it, because I was still depressed and on the verge of tears for the rest of the evening.



Today was better, in the sense that some things were settled.



After church, we went to the Pho noodle restaurant. I asked my dad a question about stragety for the tennis challenge my sister and I are going to do tomorrow. Turned into a speech about how he didn't want to be our coach anymore and that we should get private lessons from someone else and just have fun doing tennis rather than get stressed over it.



Ouch. I felt betrayed.



I mean, I've thought that too, that its logical to not get lessons from our dad because he gets angered easily which stresses us out...etc. But still, it hurt that it seems like he was giving up on us. He has such high expectations, so that it pains him when we don't meet it. Later this evening, when he was not angered about it anymore, he told me that he'll still give lessons to us if we want and are willing to put up with him getting angry.

I'm not sure if I want to. The tone of his voice sounded like he felt obliged to say it but didn't want to. So for now, I guess it'll just be practicing with the team, hitting with my sis, and using the ball machine at the Court Club.

But throughout all this, I've come to a realization:

I shouldn't stress over tennis: I'm not gonna go pro or anything, I'm just doing it for fun and exercise. Besides, as I've known from previous seasons, I do better if I don't take it too seriously and just have fun.

Winning isn't everything: I just need to do my best and not judge myself against others. I've learned to do this with other things, like being successful in school, but not in tennis, I guess. This will be hard to learn, but at least I've started.

I can't trust anyone completely, not even my family: As sad as this sounds, I've realized that my family will not always be there for me. For most of the time, yes, but there will be occasions where they will fail me. Thankfully, this has not happened much. I've always thought I will always have family to fall back to during my troubles. But now I realize that this is a hard thing to do when your family is the one causing your troubles. When my dad gave up on coaching tennis for my sis and me, that broke a little piece of my heart.

Thank goodness for my friends I can turn to when I can't turn to my family. I am blessed to have such wonderful friends, a loving family (who isn't perfect, but then, who is?), and a bright future. I am blessed to have the opportunities to learn lessons, even though some heartbreak may be involved.

Hmm... there goes my time to do Psych hw. Oh well, there's always tomorrow night!

Good night. Should be an exciting day tomorrow.